Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Frustrated, Part 2 (Or, the update I should have posted a long time ago!)

Thank you so much for all of your comments, advice, and support on my last post. I think more than anything I just needed to hear that it's OK to throw in the towel without feeling guilty. (I allow myself to feel guilty way too easily, even over things that aren't in any way my fault, so you can imagine what I was putting myself through with this!) Here's the conclusion I've come to for the time being, thanks in large part to your input: I'm going to keep the class going through December. This will give me time to decide if there's enough participation to continue. Also, the baby should be born right after Christmas, and I'll know if I feel up to keeping it going.

Since I decided on my course of action, I've been able to have a better attitude and just have fun with it. I've had 3 moms bring their kids the past few weeks, and it's been great. I feel like they're having a good time and their kids are enjoying it, and people are chatting and seem happy. Really, that's my main goal with the whole thing. I really appreciate any chance to get out of the house with my kids and entertain them, while in the company of other adults. I crave adult interaction during the day! And I'm feeling like I might keep it going even if no one else shows, because it's seeming more like it's worth the effort. Of course, once I've got kid number 5 to feed every few hours while I chase around a very active kid number 4, we'll see how I feel......

As for relief society, now that "enrichment" is no longer, I'm pretty much relieved of that part of it. It really was my own thing all along, and now I don't have to pretend that it has anything to do with the ward (except that I'm using their building). So that's no longer a concern. Yeah!

Anyway, thanks again for weighing in and supporting my right to do whatever I need to do. If I end up cancelling the class next year, I think I can do it without feeling bad. For now, if you're ever looking for something to do on Tuesday at 1:00, you know where I'll be! Brittany, I'd love to see you again and get a chance to meet your cute baby. And anyone is welcome, so bring all of your friends!


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And now, just for fun, here's what I made at church tonight:

(Sorry, the picture's pretty bad, but my camera's batteries were about to die.) If you know me, you know that this saying is very appropriate for me. I'm excited to put it in my new bedroom! (Yes, I realize I still need to post pics of my new cute room. The curtains should be done this week and then I'll post. See, I really don't have it together. Don't think I don't know it!)