How ironic that for the last 13 days, every time you've looked at my blog you've read the title of my last post, "About time for a new post, don't you think?"! It is definitely time that I update you on what's going on in my world. I'm just struggling for the right words.

A week ago yesterday, Tanner's mom passed away. (If you don't know, Tanner is my 12-year-old stepson.) This was a huge shock to everybody - most of all, I'm sure, to Tanner. His mom has been sick for a long time, but we always hoped that he wouldn't be faced with this until he was much older. We found out from a mutual friend, and it took us several days before we were able to reach Tanner. We were so worried about him and how he was handling things, that it made for a rough week. We finally got to spend a few hours with him Thursday evening. The funeral was on Saturday. It is heart-wrenching to watch a young child grieve the loss of a parent.

As you can imagine, there are big changes in store for our little family. We'll be meeting with Tanner's stepdad and grandma this week to iron out the details, so I hesitate to say much yet. I can tell you that I am overwhelmed and terrified to take on a bigger role in Tanner's life. At the same time, I look forward to spending more time with him - I love Tanner so much!

Like I said before, I'm having a hard time expressing my feelings right now. I feel like I'm in limbo and that is a paralyzing feeling for me. I think I'll feel better when the decisions have been made and the ball is rolling.

My heart goes out to Tanner and his brother, his stepdad, his grandparents, and anyone else who is missing Jayme right now.